Who is the last boy you talked to on the phone?
i'm not sure. nick?

What color is your underwear right now?
multicolored. polka dots.

What are you listening to right now?
some douche talking really loud. in a place that says "quiet zone". super.


what are the last 2 digits in your phone number?
84.

What was the last thing you ate?
chicken & mashed potatoes last night.

If you were a crayon what color would you be?
yellow.

How is the weather right now?
okay. a bit cool. then again, it IS march.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
i don't know, to be honest. cynthia?

The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
style. in general.

Do you smoke?
yes. =[

Ever get so drunk you dont remember?
once.

What color are your eyes?
poop brown.

Last time you went to the dentist?
months ago.

Do you wear contacts?
no.

Single?
no.

Favorite Month?
september.

Ever cried for no reason?
yes.

Last Movie you watched?
rent. =]

Favorite day of the week?
usually saturdays.

Are you too shy to ask someone out?
usually. but i have. obviously.

Hugs or Kisses?
hugszorz.

Chocolate or Vanilla?
vanilla.

Whose birthday is coming up next?
dana's!!

Ever watched Office Space?
yes. i believe you have my stapler.

What books are you reading?
one jessie got me for my birthday.

Piercings?
lip and ears.

Favorite movie?
just one?

Favorite baseball team?
the white sox. wait.. scratch that. ANY team BUT the cubs.

Any pets?
a cat.

AIM Screen Name?
i salt wounds. i believe.. is the one i used last. back in 1924.

Butter, Plain or salted popcorn?
i dislike popcorn.

Dogs or cats?
i like both. cats smell less though. =]

Favorite flower?
tulips. or something.

Have you ever fired a gun?
yes.

Do you like to travel by plane as opposed to car?
it depends. am i with my family? then plane, for sure. friends? car.

Right handed or left handed?
i am right handed.

How many pillows do you sleep with?
one.

Are you missing someone?
yes, but does he miss me? probably not.

well, well. let's update shall we?

i'm twenty-two.
it's been five months with nick.
i really need to get out of this place.
dana & i are trying to go to yosemite this year.
i CANNOT save money, so i know that it won't work..
i don't know how much longer i can deal with everything.

moral of the story is: it's been 4 years since i've started writing in this. and i STiLL do nothing but bitch.

i want my bartending job back. badly.

update.. hmm. there IS nothing to update on. oh, wait.
day. i work until 4. supposed to watch the PACKERS play tonight. yikes.
week. it's thanksgiving this week.. i'm not working. and i'm pissed. you may say why the hell would she want to work on thanksgiving? well.. holiday pay, duh.
school. i need at least a C in my humanities to stay in college.. due to poor decisions i've made in the past. i'm currently at an A+.
life. is okay. nick & i have been dating for a little over a month now. we'll see how that goes..


much love.

muskrats.
that is all.
it's snowing outside.
aurora sucks up my gas.
fucking a, man. fucking a.

parental control with nicholas? this is ridic.

meh. last day of class.

being a bitch WAS my goal in life. so on that note.. i guess i AM successful after all. sweet.

yay: davy's birthday made for fun times.
nay: i work tomorrow.
yay: i DON'T MiSS HER ONE BiT.

i let people use me way too much. =(
on the other hand, he apologized to me.

yay: jacob let me take him shopping.
nay: 2-10 is THE worst shift ever.
yay: i don't work tomorrow and i plan on doing nothing but drinking tonight.
nay: probably will throw my brains up later.

there's ALWAYS that one person in the group who must feel joy when telling someone bad news. like i told stevie tonight, "in the least asshole-ish way, i was told no one wanted me around. there was no point in me being there." why does this happen to me? jesus.

i've decided to update more.
i've become somewhat close friends with brandon this summer.
then he moved away.
just as you think things are starting to go well for yourself,
it kinda just gets a bit messed up in the end.
i mean, come on, what would life be if it were perfect?
brandon's best friend, stevie, hung out a lot.
he struck my fancy. i'm not quite sure why.
about that perfect life thing, he called me a cunt.
i was taken aback. i didn't really know what to say about it.
it could've been because he was a little messed up at the time..
it could've been because i was being a tad obnoxious.. either way.
no one (especially no BOY that i like) has ever called me that. AND MEANT IT.
i told myself i would not talk to him anymore. and then he texted me last night.
we all hung out. and everything was like how it used to be. like it never happened.
and now i'm stuck telling myself that it wasn't as big of a deal as i made it seem like.
or maybe HE didn't think it was that big of a deal. but i did. you don't say that to a girl.

yay: i've become super close with jessica, a manager, from work. we are currently trying to hook her up with jacob. and, by golly, i think it might be working.
yay: i'm going camping this weekend. REAL camping in a tent. my first time.. EVER.
nay: people are still shit talkers.

anyway, much love to you.

dear livejournal,
last night was on of THE best nights of my life.
jordan, jacob, ryan, dana & i had a little soiree.
the best part? the trip to meijer to buy a slip 'n slide.
well, either that or when jacob put his cigarette out on his shirt.

SUPER drunk nights = <3.

ciao.

i have no friends.
so i am going to sleep at 9 24.
this is absolutely ridiculous.. godddd.
and some FRIEND is no longer a good FRIEND.
do not make plans with me and then not show/call.

i work six pm to one am today. it is going to suck. there is one thing i have to get off of my chest..

I HATE YOU, YOU'RE A WHORE.

okay, that's all.

today i realized that best friends are no longer what they used to be.

yeah, fuck that noise. who needs friends.

if you don't plan on hanging out with me then don't give me the whole "yeah, i'll call you at this hour.." or "we can chill i just gotta do this first". and then you NEVERRR answer your phone?

ass.

AND THEN.. the kids who sleep at seven pm.
and they really ARE sleeping. at seven.
that is all.

screw people.
i have no friends.
i hate you all.
that's it.

kasey & i are offically broken up. and it SUCKS.
i work 3 until 10 on halloween. that sucks, too.
but at least it'll get things off of my mind for awhile.

gah.

dear livejournal sir.

jacob is me 'n kasey's new best friendddddddddddddd.

w3rd. that is all.

i am tired of hearing//reading//listening to people bitch about personal things that, in the end, don't really amount to much of anything. i do not care. i have my own problems to deal with. call me a bitch, but that's the way i feel. i've found myself dealing horribly with my anger problems. could you tell?

i wish everyday with people could just start out new.
a new adventure.. a new lesson.. a new day.
but no. it never can. because people are always too stuck in the past.

let it go.

my apologies for the above, i'm having a bad day. i take it out on you, mr. livejournal.

LOVE, me.

kasey & i are back together.. and the thing is.. honestly..

i could not be any happier.